Let it be

"Let it be" The wisest phrase I've come to know. We have no control over each variable, I do not. I know that things will be how they should and when you admit it to yourself you can truly be free. I now smile after these two long days of sad faces, pity parties and anger. Because after these two days I finally come to terms with where I lay. Not in your arms but in my own, and the feeling is just as comforting. I do not need your untrusting arms, or breath. Mine is the only one I need to trust. Though I can't stop the dreams of me loving you and you loving in return. There, in my dreams is where I'll find a loving you, a place where I can let it be and be happy with the outcome. I'll awake with a smile on my face and that would be enough. Though we loved in a dream I know it was not you because when you came back to me you were different. Your sex changed, your arms changed, your chest changed, your eyes changed and your grip on me changed. Yeah, in this dream we loved and when I looked again it was not you I was loving, but him. His smile gleamed at me and then he kissed me in my mouth. I took his shirt off and ran my hands up and down his back. It felt right, no doubt about that and since it was a dream, I could make love to him and not feel ashamed. My fingernails left lines of red scattered across his back. And when we were finished he disappeared. I walked out of this room, a room I would only see, only know in my dreams. As I walked from the room, I fell right into her arms. I cried tears of joy, though I'm not sure what I was happy about or for. We indulged in the bliss of getting high. That's what we've always done from the beginning anyways. All in all, it was a good dream and it shall be the cause of my good mood. I'll let what happened, happen. Smile that it happened and not let the memory haunt me as it may. Today is for sure a day to smile on.